Chapter 1
The Still Surface, the Rising Tide (Part One)
With the slow unfurling of days into months, life for Xie Lian had grown to be surprisingly simple. No, rather than simple, it had, for once, been… peaceful. It was a feeling he was slowly learning to accept, a feeling still foreign to him.
The one thing that hadn’t changed after all this time was his place in the mortal realm, still in need of his help. Puqi Shrine stood broader than he remembered, a small courtyard added where there had once been rubble, rebuilt in his absence by villagers whose care he had never quite known how to properly place, much less repay. And before long, those same villagers—some familiar, others known only by face—began to seek him out again, with the same trust as before, as if he had never been gone. It also didn’t take much time for him to find himself guiding lost travelers, calming wandering spirits, and righting some mishaps that—thankfully, somehow no longer grew into full-blown disasters. All just as he had done before. For Xie Lian, this was the quiet life that he missed. A pleasant one, at that.
What he hadn’t quite adjusted to, however, was just how often he found himself missing Hua Cheng. The long stretches of days when their paths couldn’t cross were harder than Xie Lian had expected. He had grown used to absence, to letting time pass quietly, and for a long while, that had been enough. But now, with Hua Cheng’s return and all of the responsibilities that came with it, each moment apart felt more delicate, as if even the smallest intrusion on Hua Cheng’s time would be too much to ask of him. They saw each other when their schedules aligned, which was never quite as often as either of them hoped. While Xie Lian could at least slip away from his volunteer work if he really wanted to, Hua Cheng carried the weight of an entire city; Xie Lian understood that better than most. So he let the days pass as they always had.
So when he finished a round of tasks in a neighboring village earlier than expected, he hesitated only long enough to pretend he’d thought it through. Really, there was no harm in stopping by Ghost City. After all, he was already nearby. Practically on the way… Entirely reasonable.
It was only a visit.
Just a visit…
No need to make a big deal of it.
His steps fell into an easy rhythm, carrying him toward Ghost City before he fully realized how fast he was walking.
Soon, the familiar glow of lanterns and the swell of lively voices rose around him as he approached the city’s entrance.
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Xie Lian walked through the familiar streets of Ghost City, where the night was always loud and bright. Vendors of every shape and shade hollered over one another, offering strange skewers, spurious talismans, questionably sourced meat, dubious elixirs, and… Gods know what. He half-expected to be mobbed the moment he set foot within this strip of booths, yet the rabid enthusiasm he had braced for never came.
Instead, the ghosts were wrapped in their own revelry. They jostled and bickered, drinking, laughing, yelling greetings to friends… None of them spared Xie Lian more than a passing glance or a friendly wave.
There was nothing unusual about that.
And yet, a faint chill crept along Xie Lian’s spine. In the center of vivid colors and noise, he felt strangely invisible, as if he were merely a slip of paper floating through the crowd… Weightless, purposeless.
He shivered. Only then did he notice that his feet had carried him… somewhere. A slightly quieter alley, lanterns rustling overhead, their glow seeming harsher than before.
“Xie-dashu!1 What are you doing here!” croaked out a scratchy voice.
Xie Lian turned to see a scrawny ghoul trotting toward him, its grin stretched unnaturally wide.
“Ah… just sto—”
“You’re here to visit Hua Chengzhu, aren’t you?” the ghoul blurted out, words tumbling over one another with barely contained excitement.
“…”
“Why else would he be here?” another ghost, one with a broader frame, chimed in. “Hua Chengzhu treats him so well—as to be expected! Truly worthy of a ruler!”
Xie Lian’s face warmed. “Oh… yes… I suppose…”
“What has this little one been up to? Any trouble with those mortals?” boomed a boar-headed creature, one that Xie Lian recognized as the notorious butcher. “Just say the word and I’ll take care of it for you!” He laughed boisterously as he thumped a cleaver down as if to prove his devotion—straight into his own booth! Wood splintered everywhere, and several ghosts jumped before scolding him harshly.
“Oh, no, no, it’s fine…!” Xie Lian rushed to raise his hands, waving them frantically.
Now, this friendly bombardment, he was used to. But tonight, the voices felt thicker, heavier. More than he could manage.
“Have you eaten yet, little gege?” A ghostly courtesan questioned with a shrill giggle.
“Could you tell our Hua Chengzhu that—”
“Hey! He’s not your personal messenger, you idiot!”
“Have you heard— they’re hosting— …Chengzhu said—”
The words tangled, layering over one another like too many hands reaching at once. Xie Lian’s own mouth moved—something polite, surely, but he couldn’t even make out his own words.
A nearby ghost leaned in, its features twisted strangely, mouth flapping rapidly. The sound reached Xie Lian’s ears, but meaning refused to follow.
He blinked hard. The ground seemed to tilt beneath him.
“Ah… sorry… I should, um, go now…” Xie Lian mustered with a slight bow, suddenly too ashamed to look any of them in the eye. The dizziness washed over him again, settling heavily in his chest.
The ghosts waved cheerfully, oblivious, their voices echoing strangely as though the crowd was a further distance from where Xie Lian stood. As he turned away, his feet began moving on their own once again. He never noticed how his pace quickened—light at first, then faster, then faltering with each stumble, as if he were trying to outrun something that only he could sense.
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Xie Lian’s steps slowed only once the familiar silhouette of Paradise Manor came into view. With each visit, it felt a little less imposing, its halls less vast. The careful wariness of his first time here, so long ago, had faded away.
Inside, the halls were quiet. He adjusted his sleeves more out of habit than need and followed the gentle pull of familiarity rather than any clear direction. The absence of sound should have been calming, yet he found himself searching each turn, each open doorway, until—
There.
Beyond the open threshold of the courtyard, Hua Cheng stood beneath the night sky. The sight of him stilled Xie Lian at once, not from hesitation, but from relief. Hua Cheng looked exactly as he always did, unhurried and at ease, as if time moved differently around him. A light breeze stirred his hair and tugged at his robes, but he remained wholly unconcerned by it, grounded in a way that made everything else feel less urgent by comparison.
“San Lang,” Xie Lian said softly, more a greeting than a call.
Hua Cheng turned almost immediately. His visible eye found Xie Lian with ease, his expression easing as he closed the distance between them. He did not comment, did not ask why Xie Lian had come so suddenly. He simply fell into step beside him, as though this had always been expected.
“Gege,” he replied, quiet and fond, as if the word alone was enough.
They began to walk together, their conversation drifting into familiar, gentle rhythms. Nothing urgent. Nothing heavy. Just fragments of shared days and small observations exchanged as they moved through the manor’s halls. The tension Xie Lian carried loosened with each turn of the corridor, until it faded into something distant and manageable. The lingering noise of Ghost City felt distant now.
Xie Lian found himself glancing over, only to see Hua Cheng already watching him, calm and attentive, without expectation.
He smiled, the tension easing enough that he stopped guarding the moment so closely. Conversation faded naturally as they walked, words giving way to something easier.
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By the time they reached Hua Cheng’s chambers, the quiet had settled comfortably between them. Inside, the room was softly lit, the glow catching on silk curtains and carved screens. It was still, but not empty. The kind of quiet that felt deliberate.
They shed their outer robes without ceremony, folding them aside as they always did. Hua Cheng moved with his usual unhurried ease, unbothered, already at home. Xie Lian followed, loosening layer after layer until the tightness in his shoulders eased, just slightly. They sat together on the bed. Xie Lian meant to keep his distance, meant to sit properly, but the mattress dipped beneath Hua Cheng’s weight and shifted him closer despite himself.
Xie Lian reached out almost absentmindedly, fingers brushing along Hua Cheng’s collarbone, then lower, tracing the familiar lines of his chest through thin fabric. It was a light touch, barely there—exploratory, reverent. Hua Cheng stilled, then relaxed into it, a quiet huff of amusement escaping him as he let himself fall back against the pillows, sprawling with theatrical exaggeration.
“Careful, gege,” Hua Cheng said lazily, eye half-lidded. “You’re going to knock me off the bed.”
Xie Lian laughed, soft and genuine. He leaned just a little closer, trying to settle beside Hua Cheng as he sprawled without apology. “That would hardly be my fault. You’re the one taking up so much room.”
“Am I?” Hua Cheng turned toward him, closing the distance with a simple shift. He was suddenly very close, near enough that Xie Lian could feel the movement of him, the subtle rise of his chest as he mimicked a breath he didn’t need. Hua Cheng’s hand caught lightly at Xie Lian’s sleeve, thumb brushing his wrist in a familiar, teasing touch.
Xie Lian’s laughter thinned into something quieter. “San Lang…”
“Hm?” Hua Cheng murmured, tilting his head just slightly, as if listening for something beneath the word.
Xie Lian leaned in without fully meaning to, drawn by instinct more than intention. Hua Cheng’s smile softened, its sharpness easing.
“There,” Hua Cheng said quietly. “That’s better.”
Xie Lian shook his head, fondness tugging at his mouth despite himself. “You’re impossible…”
Hua Cheng didn’t answer right away. Instead, he studied Xie Lian with an open, unguarded gaze. Not sharp, not assessing. Just warm. Amused. Affectionate in a way that felt dangerously perceptive.
“Gege’s in a good mood,” he said at last.
Xie Lian blinked, caught off guard. Then he smiled, small and unthinking. “...Is it that obvious?”
“Mmm.” Hua Cheng’s thumb brushed his wrist again, slow and familiar. “That smile,” he said softly. “Gege didn’t even try to hide it tonight.” His gaze flicked upward, playful, knowing. “Did gege miss me that much?”
Something jolted.
Xie Lian felt it immediately, sharp and inward, like being called out when he hadn’t realized he was visible at all. His smile faltered.
Miss him…? Of course he had missed him... The thought should have been comforting. And yet, he pulled back before he could stop himself, the movement sharper than he intended. The bed suddenly felt much larger.
“No—” Xie Lian started, then faltered, words tangling. “I mean— I—” He let out a strained laugh that didn’t quite land in an attempt to smooth things over.
Hua Cheng’s hand lingered where Xie Lian had been, fingers curling slightly before falling still.
The air between them shifted. Not broken, but… off. Just enough for Xie Lian to feel that sense of disconnect creeping up on him again. His gaze slid away, his attention snagging on anything that wasn’t the space between them.
Hua Cheng paused. “Gege…?”
“I… I’m going to take a bath,” Xie Lian blurted before he could stop himself. He thought that, maybe, this would at least pass as a reasonable means of escape, but the moment Hua Cheng’s gaze flickered—just a beat, just for the words to suggest a different meaning, heat shot up Xie Lian’s neck. Of course it sounded like… like that!
“Um— because it’s been a while!” he quickly added, but that was a mistake too. Didn’t that sound even worse!? The urge to flee was overwhelming.
But Hua Cheng merely inclined his head, his expression now calm. “Then I’ll have it prepared for you.”
“No, no!” Xie Lian raised both hands. He didn’t want to trouble anyone—he never did. But at this point… wasn’t he turning this into an even bigger mess? He steadied his voice and said, “I can… manage it myself… really…” The last word thinned into a whisper before he realized it.
Expression remaining as steady as ever, Hua Cheng nodded. “Mn… Take your time.”
“Yes,” Xie Lian responded. “Yes”…? Caught between relief and mortification, he slid off the bed and stooped into a stiff bow, then straightened at once when he realized just how absurd that looked—so formal, especially towards Hua Cheng—and yet, he couldn’t stop himself. Heat flooded his face. He spun on his heel and hurried out before Hua Cheng could say another word.