January 10th, 2025

10 days into the new year and I finally finished creating my new diary, though I'm not sure if I love the theme for it yet. I used images from Read Or Die because I want to restrict myself to using graphics from media that I'm actually familiar with, and I also miss Yomiko and Nancy very much. As for how pink and cutesy this page (and the rest of my site) is, I'm starting to lose interest in it. I feel like this sort of design is mostly easy to replicate because there are so many resources online + other sites with this sort of theme, so I haven't messed around enough with other styles that really interest me. I really do like cute things, but I like things that are unconventional and have a lot of depth to them even more. I'm really interested in sites that might be bare but have a lot of written content and sites that are also completely cluttered with original graphics and information. Sites that are weird and artsy and almost feel disconnected from what you're used to seeing. Or something like that? I'm not really sure, especially since I haven't come across enough websites or artists in general that get this sort of visceral reaction out of me.

I'll probably keep sticking with this cute theme until I can figure something out. I don't want to say that this website's design has just been “fake” this whole time or something because I don't even hate it for what it is (even if it probably blends in with a lot of “pink sites”), I just don't know how to be as genuine as I want, or I don't know how to feel like I'm being genuine. Does that make sense? At least the nice thing about making my own website is that I can make any page look however I want, so all of this isn't really a big issue. I want to at least start creating my own art and patterns because I feel a little weird using graphics that I pull from other places online, even though that's what everyone else does.

Besides all of that, I want to start working on my “review” page, and then I can take a break from designing things. I say it a lot, but I really want to get into writing, which is probably the hobby I've always struggled with the most. I can code for multiple hours a day for 10 days straight, but I've been staring at the prompts on my Muse page and haven't been bothered to write anything yet. I'm going to look more into how to get into this hobby and try finding some inspiration since I keep getting stuck.

Song of the Day: Ryuuuu - Secret (cover)